Tuesday, May 23, 2006
6:47 AM

Things happen so fast these few days. Erm,.. today ii was sent for conselling AGAIN. Damn it was de second time in a month that ii got into trouble. And de trouble ii got moiself into was sho trivial yet ii still hav to go for conselling. Damn! Life certainly ish unfair when euu're a student nurse. Yeash yeash. Here's me AGAIN wallowing in self-pity and always being repititive abt being victimized. Haas well dat's me alrite... Whiny whiny ME! Erm,... Wad else happen ar? Hmm... Apparently, everytime ii wanna meet Takin, there's always something cropppin up or avoiding me from meetin him. Gawd. It's as if we were fated nort to meet or something. Uber creepy yea.. It's oredi de one millionth times we planned to meet. And yet to no avail. How crappy yea. Anw,.. he aint all dat so no worries even if ii couldnt meet him.. Sorry kin. Okie okie. Remember S*** dat BL guy? iim gettin more and more into him yea. Dats scary. Oni thing ish iim kinda afraid dat he might b a potential MAT! (A MAT ish a malay brudder hu talk and act big; as dou he owns de whole frickin werld and somewat de malay version of an "ah beng". Opposite of a MAT is a MINAH!Haas ii was a MINAH once. Can you imagined how "URGH!" ii was last tym? Anw, dats HISTORY) Ouh ouh...! Can somebody enlighten me abt de "dating game"? Erm,.. like for example, how many days should de girl wait before de guy would call to justify dat he's genuinely interested in her after he had gotten her no.? Haas... Cuz it's been a long tym ever since ii gave moi no. to a guy hus nort moi fren.. Usualli ii would have given moi no. to a fren's fren dat kinda crapp. *sigh* Enuf abt matters of de hearts. This coming friday.. iim all hyped and pumped up. iim gonna officially AUDITION for de modern dance. iim all butterflies rite now. Urgh! Nervous MAN! Hope ii cud get in. ii seriousli like dancing. it's like it hab become part of me. ii dance when ii shower. ii dance wen ii outside wib moi frens goofing around. ii dance wen ii club(*DUH). ii dance wen iim sadd. ii dance practically EVERYWHERE and whenever ii feel like it lahh. Haas. Sucha retard huh ME? ;P Anw,.. wish dis crazy yet passionate girl all de best for her audition yea cuz she gonna NEED all de luck in de werld yea. *LMAO* Ciao crazy ppl..

Will you remember me?
-bB

Thursday, May 18, 2006
5:48 AM

OMG!! ii didnt know NURSING could be DAMN TUFF'... Most ALL classes start at 8 in de AM and de shitty thing ish.. ii lived in Woodlands and moi college ish at de other part of the world lahh... SIMEI... thank gawd ders SOMEONE hu send me to sch by BIKE... Thanks DUDE! Anw,... ii rmbr dis particular incident where ii was denied to go to class cuz ii was 8 min late...WOW. Moi lecturer ask me to go "have-tea-and-come-back-at-ten"... And ii was exile to cafe 1 lahh wib to other latecomers... We stoned for a couple of frickin' hours lahh... Urgh! Damn it sia... Cant blame anyone but moiself for choosing tis' course yea... ii wanted tis'! ii better try to adapt to de strictness of de course lahh. *sigh* Den der's other crapp like a NURSE cant dye her hair, NURSE cant where have un-bunned, NURSE cant do dat and do dis.. iit's driving me up de wall lahh. Ouh and i'll shall sey dis vagueli though, MOI LECTURER exaggerated smthg so SMALL into smthg so uuge! Aaaaaarrrrggggghhhh! Anw, NURSING aside!! (For now ar least!) ii hav a new crush! *grins* ii never felt dis way towards a guy fer a long tym already... Cuz usualli iit'll b ONLY an infatuation on dis guy, dat guy, dis fag... list go on... But dis tym,.. iit lasted for nearly 3 weeks. WOW. ii mean ii feel de butterfly fillin' up in moi stomach everytym ii c him. ii get tongue-tied or WORST i stammered in front of him. Damn! He must have thot ii was a retard or smthg. Wait mebe he didnt even noticed ME in de first place! Everything sound and feel WAY, WAY too high school. Urgh! Can you believe it ii cudnt even plucked up de courage to talk to him. ME. CANT? Dats just wrong! iit's almost criminal! Okie okie you're wondering hu de hell ish dis guy iim crushing over. Well,..
He's from de same college as me. but different school.. iim from School of Applied Health Sciences (AHS) and he's from School of Engineering. He's a Bridge Leader.(He does orientations and riling up of crowds aka THE RAH-RAH PEOPLE) He have tat Arabic look, tat fair, blushy skin.. Tat brown spiky hair... Does eyes... *blushed* He's cute. He's look like a teddy. So huggable! (Cuz he is one de roundish side)ii heard he is called.... S***.. Like real. iim crushin over a GUY hu ii do nort know anything abt.(nort even his name) Well, ii kinda wished i'll stop! These feelings should just stopped. Making me feel like an immature twelve-year-old havin lusty day-dreams and horny thots on that senior hus WAY outta her league. NERD! Well, at least ii dun have horny thots abt him. Well,.. nort yet! Haas..

Till ii write again.
Cheers, enjoy de long weekends ITE peeps ONLY...

Will you remember me?
-bB

Saturday, May 13, 2006
9:12 AM

Someone woke up at the wrong side of de bed. ii woke up uber late. itz was oredi nearli 10AM. And iim supposed to meet moi fren, Atiqah at ten lahh. Aargh! Shud have sleep earlier ytd. ii slept uber late ytd cuz ii was chatting wib dis new guy ii just gotten to know. His name ish Hilmee. Anw, thank gawd Atiqah was nort angry lahh.. Sho uber sweet and understanding*tsk tsk* of her. ii met her at MAC centre. Felt all nostalgic and all... ii furkin mish goin there. MAC centre was de place moi clique and ii goes to fills our empty stomachs after skewl. it definitely brought back memories; sweet and badd. ^^;; ii mish moi girlfrens and boifrens.*sigh.
Anw,... Atiqah and ii had one of de shortest but intense chat ever.(quality definitely beats quantity hands down) Atiqah hav changed. She used to be all quiet and somewhat timid. but now moi dear girl hab taken silat as her CCA. o.O? Since when did she became sho *woah*? But her momm was skeptical abt her being in silat so she's kinda peeved abt dat. Anw,.. wadever she choose ii'll b supporting herr aite,..! (Girl, you know ii'm here you kae!)Okae,.. after moi lil' meeting wib moi girlfren, ii went to meet moi ex-colleague aka Momm aka Soffie. We went to..*guess where* Geylang.. Soffie was moi lunch khaki. She was moi so-called office momm. She's uber caring when ii'm sick lahh. *grins* Anw, we went geylang to shop for shawls for her mom, handbags for her funky grandma and pigg out at Arnold's. ii thot at first tat it wud get awkward cuz itz been awhile since ii met her so our frequency might be a lil' off.. but wen met dat feelings of uncertainty just fades away. We hit it off straight away... We were bitching abt her boss, Mxxx, hu a hairy mistake (may dear gawd forgive Mxxx, for she had sinned), abt de new pretty, hot exec, abt how UNCLE DER bein de BUAYA dat he ish was trying to get LUCKY wit de new hot exec, abt moi situations wib Ab's bro, and blahh blahh... Being de cheeky girls dat we are. We literally scared de pants out of de couple hu ate beside us at Arnold's by bein uber horny. Okae before PERVS out der starts propositioning miee. What ii meant was.. We were horny as in we were making dirty/cheesy/lame-ass jokes abt de "DEED" and things or peeps associated wit it' and let you in on one of dose jokes,.. it involved me and FIR wib his pants down. LMAO. We went window-shoppin' at one of de biggest THIS FASHION. ii never went there. trust me ii was stunned at how uuge de frickin' place ish lahh. it's like a cheap clothes paradise. but WE didnt find anything dat was OUR cuppa tea. OMG. on de way home from geylang, ii was sorta traumatised by man-boobs. There's dis guy hu was alighting from de MRT dat was sorta squishing his chest due to de space-constraint. AND there ii saw IT.. MAN-BOOBS on dat guy. Cleavage and all... Uurgh! But thankfully.. He wasnt a worthy enuf contender to ousted ME. Queen B'. Wahhaa*evil laughter*Hmpf. Anw, de day was kinda exhausting and all.. OUH ouh...ii just rmbr. euu know wad. Takin msgs me just now to apologised for blewing ME off. Uurgh! ii dun mind ib you re-schedule or wad but in moi case, ii msg him and he just farkin' said nort to msg him cuz he's wit him GF. Fuck him. Euu cud at least say it nicely. ii'll understand, no need get all malignant. ii mean ii understand wad we hav is COMMITMENT-FREE but it's oni human to talk in a manner tat ish nort harsh lahh! What an ASS! Haas.. Bein a bitch ish nort that hard aite.*wink* Nitez..

Will you remember me?
-bB

Friday, May 12, 2006
10:33 AM

**random things* Me feeling a lil' of everything. mixed up. Everything happen so fast. Uber fast. And dunno ib I cud keep up at the rate ii'm goin. ii'm usually caught up nowadays. Stoning. In daze. Lifeless. Dull. Bored. Blurrish. Unattractively droggy. Words that people would nort describe ME is what ii practice these days. mebbe b'cuz ii'm STILL soar. Soar abt moi new acceptance to moi much-overrated-and-hyped nursing course. Soar abt nort able to adapt to moi new classmates. Soar abt havin' to take S&W(we hab to take THE NAPFA test*shivers*) & PIE(Sho terribly kiddish lahh). Soar abt a scandalous-spurr-of-the-mmt- thingy at Zouk FLMP party wita certain guy. Soar abt being fricking groped in moi sch lifts.TWICE. Soar abt losing moi best friend. Soar abt cant kick moi only poison, Smoking. Soar abt being the THIRD party. SOAR. SOAR, SOAR, SOAR... These soarness would furkin go away, thus, the indifferent ME. Mebbe cuz all happen too fast. And ii cant digest and deal in time wit all tis' crapp. Okae. okae. Stop dwelling in self-hatred and low-esteem babeh!! It's so unlike ME!...Urgh! Mebe next tym ii'll go into detail abt each and every crapp ii got moiself into... but for now,...all dis lil' bitch need ish SLEEP... been deprive of it lately ever since I started being a student nurse. Ciaoo....

Will you remember me?
-bB